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Date:2001-10-07 21:25
Subject:Turkey! Turkey! Rah Rah Rah... BAH!

Thanksgiving makes me realize what little family I actually have. We didn't/aren't even doing anything, because it's just too pointless. I have no cousins... that I will acknowledge, and that's actually fine with me. And I understand why we can't get together and have Thanksgiving dinner, and I'm fine with that! But it makes me sad that I have so little family, and soon, it's going to get even smaller. There's nothing I can do about it. I know that.

I used to look SO forward to Christmas, cuz everyone would go to someone's house, and Shannon, Mandy and me would all sleep in one room...well we would pretend to sleep, so that the parents would put our stockings out, and then we'd open them right away, to give us a little fix before the big morning!! And I could never wait until summer came, cuz I knew that meant that we would be going up to the lake, and everyone would be up there, and we'd go tubing, and sit around the fire and play The Alphabet Game, and everyone would get drunk. And I would think of how great it was going to be when I turned 18, and could drink with them. THAT never happened.

And now, I have no real aunt, I'm scared of my uncle, no cousins. They can all die for all I care. My Grandma is nuts!! and my Grandpa is dying. I have SO much to be thankful for. Ohhhh yes.

Oh, and now mom is getting mad, cuz I'm typing too much. Wahoo.

(5 splats + shoot the shit)

Date:2001-10-06 22:07
Subject:I'm not bored.... REALLY!!

1. Currently, what is your favourite song?
For quite some time now, it's been Elysium by Scott Brown, but I do lurve The Middle by Jimmy Eat World
2. Name a special toy/doll and why it is special.
My teddy bear, Grapes. Cuz he's been with me my WHOLE life, and I can't sleep without him, and he's the only person that doesn't talk back to me! *lol*
3. What kind of Gum do you like?
The Trident in the light blue package. I would like Juicy Fruit alot more if it stayed juicy, longer.
4. What kind of computer do you have?
HP... Hewlett Packard for those of you who don't follow the abbreviations.
5. What is on your left side?
My left ear, eye, nostril, arm, fingers, leg toes... and bum cheek! Oh wait... did you mean to the left of me?....
6. What kind of animal represents you?
Umm, a dog... cuz... I don't know why. A dog is the only animal I like, so naturally I'm going to put that.
7. Who knows you the best?
Well, my mom obviously. But nextly, Eryn
8. Name a time when you felt like you were on Cloud Nine.
When I was in love.
9. If I were to give you a picture of me, what would you say?
Umm, who are you?
10. What do you do when you get depressed?
Listen to sad music, then hug my puppy.
11. Who do you think likes you for who you are?
Well, I would like to think everyone... don't they?
12. What do you think of Pasta PoRn?
Considering I don't know what you're talking about... I cannot answer the question.
13. How many posters do you have in your room?
Right now, just 2. But you just wait till later!!
14. How many mirrors do you have in your room?
1 I think. Yes, 1.
15. Describe your bathroom.
Eeeek. It's a mess right now. But it's got blue rugs, a shower, 2 sinks, some cupboards, a medicine cabinet, tons of make up and hair stuff, a little pull out mirror above the ducky towels! An orange stool... and... that's about it.
16. What would you do if I were to give you a naked picture of a Bush...George.
Not look at it.
17. Would you make friends with Bart Simpson, or immediately hate him because he�s Asian?
What? Bart Simpson is Asian? Maybe I should start paying more attention to that show...
18. Do you like incense? Which flavour?
Flavor? Don't you meant scent.... anywayz, I like Dream [from the gap] and vanilla
19. Describe one of the clocks in the house.
It's kinda octangonal... and it's got a white background with brass trim, and black hands and letters. Kinda plain.
20. Do you wear any jewelry? Nipple rings doesn�t count =�.
Darn. j/k. I have 2 earring in my right ear. And I usually wear a watch.. if THAT counts.
21. What would you do if I were to come visit you without notice?
Be kinda creeped out. No, no. I would be creeped out.
22. Name a song that�s memorable and why.
Roses are red by Aqua. Cuz the me and the other 3 amigos used to listen to that song everytime we were together.
23. Who is the weirdest person you ever known? In and outta chat.
I'm going to have to say Dylan. He was really messed up. Like beyond words.
24. Describe your favorite sock.
I have SOOO many, you want me to pick one?? OK. Well, right now, I lurrrrve my rainbow colored fuzzy ones with the grippies and Tweety bird on them. They keep my tootsies warm at night =)
25. What shampoo do you use and what flavor?
I don't get this "flavor" thing... scent and flavor are different... you're getting them confused. Nonetheless... I used Pantene Pro V... and it's SCENT is... Pantene Scent... I guess.
26. Name the farthest place you�ve ever been to. When yer conscious, mind you.
Ummm, California. Ya. That's the furthest.
27. What is your favourite chocolate candy?
I love Crunchie bars.. and Crispy Crunches! *drool*
28. Your favorite hard candy?
I would have to say Campinos... I muchly prefer the Life Saver Creme Savers, but they don't have those here in Canada.
29. Describe your favourite supernatural creature. (i.e. vamps, witches)
I thought Leslie Neilsen was funny when he played that vampire in the movie. Other than that, I don't believe it all that shite.
30.What is your favourite number?
I don't really have one. I always use 33, or 1979 if I have to... cuz them are SP numbers.
31. What is your favourite shirt?
Ummm, it's not really a shirt. I think they call them Dusters. It's a red, long, hooded sweater. It's so comfy and warm, and red is my color!
32. What is the longest time that you�ve peed?
I don't exactly remember, but it was prolly something close to like a minute or so.
33. Name something that people most admire about you. No essays please =�
I would say my sense of humor... but I really don't know. No one's ever really told me what.. or even if they admire me.
34. Name a person that can make you smile even when you are depressed.
Eryn, definetly.
35. Name a favourite iceream.
I'm not a big fan of ice cream. But I do like cookie dough [ice cream!]
36. MacDonalds or Burger King?
Mickey D's baby!
37. What is your favourite colour of grapes.
Hands down, no contest. RED!!!
38. Your favourite picture?
The one of me and That Other Girl. I look really good.
39. What picture is your mouse pointer?
The regular, ole. Arrow.
40. Do shampoo bottles hurt?
If you drop them on your toe, yes. Definetly.

(1 splat + shoot the shit)

Date:2001-10-06 21:42
Subject:Farking Iceholes

I KNOW that you can have little images for the amount of comments that you have in your LJ. But I just can't find someone with one, so that I can ask them how to do it =( This angers me deeply...

So does this song... it's like a young Michael Jackson, only you can't understand what he's saying, cuz it's in a different language, and all muffled by a bunch of god awfuly strewn together beats. Grrrr.

(1 splat + shoot the shit)

Date:2001-10-06 21:13

I found this person while randomly searching thru journals. I think she is probably the saddest person I've ever encountered in my entire life. I want to puke, gouge my eyes out, and rip my head off ALL at the same time when reading this.

Thursday, September 27th, 2001

11:41 am Cool, Calm, and Collected: Enter Britney Spears?!?!
Hey Y'all, what's going on? Today was the funnest day in Gladstone Homecoming HISTORY!!! All because I dressed up like Britney Spears for celebrity day. I put my hair in high pigtails and braided them, then put adorkable pink ribbons on the end. Well, the rest of the outfit is pretty self explainatory, the skirt and the knee socks, you know... we've all seen that video 50 million times. Melissa took a picture of me blowing her a kiss *SOOOO CUTE* she also took a picture of me, Danika, and Krista. (the other one)
I think everyone agreed I was the dopest Britney there!!! YEY!!! Oh yeah, I was also a half hour late for school, so I had to walk into health with all the
people looking at me... pretty sweet!!!

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Baby...One More Time - Britney Spears... DOY!

(shoot the shit)

Date:2001-10-06 19:29
Subject:You can get your kicks... on route 66! [Was that a Zellers commercial??]
Mood:pissed off

I got to go shopping today! And I went HOG wild!! I got a really cool window picture frame, where there's like... 2 little windows.. and they open up! And I bought the last book in my series. All the bathroom products that I needed... and I almost bought 2 shampoos! How stupid would that have been?? It wasn't like clothes shopping or anything, which is fine, cuz of all the California stuff, y'know. But it was nice to spend money!!
We also got our passport pictures taken.... hah, that was a laugh and a half! Mine turned out the best.. and mine is hideous but whatever, no one is really going to see it.

I still haven't got around to cleaning my room. I'll prolly do that tonight, cuz Eryn isn't going to be online =( So I don't have much to do.

Speaking of cleaning, I hate the guys in this family. They can't do ANYTHING. Well, especially Chris. The basement is always a mess, food, dirty clothes, just general shit everywhere. He doesn't LIVE in the basement, so he's got no right to do whatever he wants down there. We come home today, and no one's fed OR watered the dogs, there's garbage remains of whatever Chris bought this afternoon laying around on the counter. He's just a dirty slob, and I"m getting sick of having to clean up after him. Seriously.

Argh. The dogs are annoying me too!!!!!

(shoot the shit)

Date:2001-10-05 23:57
Subject:Dum dum da DUUUUUM

This is what I learned today!

Click here to find out what robot you really are

(shoot the shit)

Date:2001-10-05 11:43
Subject:Money means NOTHING to me!

I'm checking out futureshop.ca right now, seeing what they've got for computer. Seems not much is online. I'll check out hp.com next, I know I wanna get an HP, and I'll prolly get it from Future Shop, cuz I know they always back up their products. Like when the hard drive blew on this one, they had it fixed within a couple of days. And we've had HP's for the last couple of years, and didn't have nearly as many problems as when we had the NEC.

I'm also thinking that I want this way before January... and I really don't see why I couldn't. I have many options. One being using my mastercard, and just paying it monthly, or putting it on dad's Future Shop card, and paying him installments. Thing is, mom's worried about me not having money for California... I'll have 3 months of work behind me by the time we go, and there's nothing I would be buying in the mean time (besides the computer) It would just be so much easier for me. I would much rather sit in my room and compute, than sit down here. And I wouldn't have to have all these stupid passwords, cuz it would be my own, and I wouldn't have to worry about all the security shit. Altho, then mom would have to get a hub... and i don't know if she would do that until she gets hers. I'm sure I'll prolly have to end up waiting =(

Eryn, you have a hub.. what did it cost? Was it hard to hook it all up?


I still haven't even attempted to get ready for work. I had a shower, but I didn't want to get dressed, cuz then I would be dressed for almost 2 hours, and I want to wear those clothes as little as possible! Speaking of which, I gotta buy some more stuff... I don't wanna wear the same thing alll the time... plus I need shirts with collars, cuz the stupid apron gave me a HUGE ass rash. Grrrrr.

Time to get motivated!!

(1 splat + shoot the shit)

Date:2001-10-04 22:35
Subject:Tests you say? Tests you get!

I am 32% GAY!

(shoot the shit)

Date:2001-10-04 18:47
Subject:I feel like doing sum of these babies!!

1.Full name: Melissa Ann Carver
2.nicknames: Not many actually, just Miss! [I WANT MORE NICKNAMES!]
3.city and state born in: This things are SOO racist... to Canadians... I was born in the city of St. Albert in the PROVINCE of Alberta
4.state you live in now: I live in the PROVINCE of Alberta
5.birthdate: 04/28/83
6.astrological sign: The bull headed Taurus
7.school: University of Melissa
8.hobbies: Computing, earing of music [listening!] and writing. And recently, I've adopted the hobby of reading.
9.sports that you play/enjoy: I like watching hockey, playing and watching golf, and playing badminton... only with Eryn tho. Oh, volleyball is fun to play too =)
10.height: 5 '4"
11.shoe size: 7 - 8
12.righty or lefty: Righty all the way baby!

1. What do you think of the way you look?: Don't like it at all.
2. What do you think about your attitude?: I think I've got a good attitude, I'm a nice person, and I try hard. I can be a bitch if I wanna tho.
3. What do you think about life after death?: It doesn't exsist.
4. What do you think about karma?: Buncha BULL SHITE. My aura is purple I tell ya.
5. What do you think about love?: It's a pretty amazing feeling, more so if it's 2 sided
6. What do you think about fate?: I don't think fate exsists. [Tangent: My speakers are sounding DAMN good today]
8. What do you tell yourself if times get hard?: I just keep reminding myself of something I have to look forward too... and I think of what my mom always says.
9. What would you give your life for?: My family... more so my mom! And my friend. Ya, frienD. Only one! *lol*
10. What do you think about your first love?: I think of him alot... actually I had a dream about him last night... wtf?!? He was kewl.
11. What do you think about the first person that loved you?: See above!
12. What are you scared of?: You really wanna know? Thunderstorms, spiders, the dark, Eryn's basement... and my brother's room!
13. What was the saddest moment of your life so far?: When I found out my mom was sick.
14. What would life be without friends?: Wouldn't be worth living, I'll tell ya that much.
15. Without family?: Dead, I COULDN'T live without my family, as much as I don't like them sometimes.

*The Dream Side of You*
1.Do you dream a lot at night?: Usually yes, when I'm super tired, and warn out, I usually don't tho.
2.Do you dream in black and white, or color?: I think color.
3.Do you remember any of your dreams?: Alot of them, ya.
4.Where is your dream make out spot?: I don't know... I don't really have one... maybe a beach, or a park or something. I like those places.
5.What is your dream kiss like?: I never really thought about it.... with someone I love... that's all that really matters I think.
6.What is your dream job?: Working in the music industry... anything.
7.Where is your dream house?: California, or right here in Edmonton =)
8.Where is your dream vacation?: Oh god...... Paris, London, Australia, Mexico. You name it, I wanna go... cept like retarted places... like Guatamala... no offense to Guatamala.
9.Do you believe that your dreams are a gateway to your soul?: No, not really... if that were true, I'd have a very fucked up soul.

1.Parents names: Tina and Allan
2.Do you live with both of them?: I surely do!
3.Any siblings? If so, names and ages: Chris, age 16.
4.Do you get along with your siblings?: Actually, we get along very well now. Suddenly 2 years, isn't alot of age difference.
5.Do you get along with your parents?: Very well. My mommy and daddy are the 2 best people on this earth.

*Do you...*
1.Do you write in a journal or diary?: Umm, I must be high... what's this thing I'm writing in??.....
2.Do you keep an organizer?: I tried, during school, but it confused me more.
3.Do you believe in love at first sight?: No, not really... more like LUST
4.Do you believe that every person has one soul mate: Less and less I believe that.
5.Do you believe in God?: NO!!!!!! Don't even get me started on THAT one.
6.Do you believe in everyone (even the beyond helpless)?: No, I don't. I'm not all generous and caring and shit like that! I'll be the first to admit.
7.Do you believe in having a good education?: Umm, I do... but I don't follow the belief!
8.Do you believe in horoscopes?: I read em' but dont' really believe in them [Tangent: Elysium is like THEE best song ever.. have I mentioned that before? *smirk*]
9.Do you believe in yourself?: Well, sorta I guess. A little. I 45% believe in myself, let's put it that way.
10.Do you shower daily?: But of course!
11.Do you like this survey so far?: It's actually quite interesting.
12.Do you like the person that sent you this?: I stole it actually... from someone I don't know.... so I can't really answer the question.
13.Do you cry easily?: Why yes, yes I do!
14.Do you believe in Heaven?: Kinda... but I'm not really sure. I know there's a good place the good people go, but I don't necessarily believe it's heaven.
15.Do you believe in hell?: Same as above. But change "heaven" to "hell"
16.Do you believe in reincarnation? Didn't you already ask me this? What did I say? Shite. No, not really.

1.favorite day of the week: Umm, I like Friday and Saturday alot
2.favorite ice-cream: I don't like ice cream all that much, but if I have to eat it, Iike cookie dough
3.favorite movies: Christmas Vacation, Summer Vacation, Night at the Roxbury, Romeo + Juilet, Armageddon, blah blah blah....
4.favorite actors: Hmm... Bruce Willis, Nic Cage, Tim Robbins.
5.favorite actresses: Jennifer Aniston, Julia Roberts, Angelina Jolie
6.favorite quote: I'm not sure that I can pick one... I have alot. Sorry guys.
8.favorite music groups: Smashing Pumpkins, Garbage, Silverchair, Alien Ant Farm, Jimmy Eat World, Blink 182,
9.favorite music singers/rappers: Heather Nova, Nina Gordon, Madonna, Eminem.
10.favorite holiday: Christmas baby!!
11.favorite season: Summer, definetley summer =)
12.favorite colors: Red, blue, black and hot pink!
13.favorite flowers: I like... dead roses.... I know that's kinda twisted... I just think they hold better memories when they're dead.
14.favorite book: I don't really have a favorite book... I have fond memories of the Sweet Valley Series! SHUT UP!
15.favorite school subject: I didn't like any of them! I liked English up until grade 12. So we'll go with that.

*When you hear ___ you think of..*
1. Baseball: Telus Field
2. Jeff: Doust, from grade 7.
3.Dog: Axel!
4.Warm apple pie: American Pie!
5.Socks: How dirty mine are from not wearing shoes at work
6.Fish: All the fish I scanned at work today
7.Nail: How i wanna paint mine.
8.Amanda: My fuck-up for a cousin. AmanDUH
9.Swimming: Chantel Oswald.. she swims alot.
10.Bologna: Pig Penis
1.Giant Eagle: That commercial where the Eagel is getting his eyes checked. Funny stuff!
12.A nun: Mother Theresa... even tho she wasn't a nun... was she?
13.The # 69: That's sooo immature.
14.School: Shep... and how I kinda miss it...


6.Is the funniest: Eryn!
7.Do you tell your dreams to: Eryn
8.Do you tell your fears to: Eryn
9.Do you go to for advice: I don't usually go for advice.. but Eryn
10.Have you dreamt about: I don't usually dream about my friends...
11.Knows everything about you:Eryn
12.Do you tell your secrets to:I don't have many secrets.. but Eryn [I'm noticing a pattern here....]
13.Is the most shy: None shy friends thankyouverymuch... well Sabrina is kinda shy... she's my friend!
14.Is the loudest: Eryn!
15.Can't you live without: Eryn
16.Is the most trendy: Eryn, cuz she got Old Navy shit now!!
17.Can be the most annoying: Hmm, none are annoying... otherwise I wouldn't be friends with em!
18.Lives the farthest away from you: Eryn =(
19.Lives closest to you: Ashley
20.Are you most like: Eryn! We share a brain... according to me...
21.What do you look for in a friend?: Someone crazy like me, intellegent.. unlike me... and F-U-N.

1.boyfriend/girlfriend's name: N/A
2.crush: For once, I actually don't have one
3.where does that special someone live?: N/A
4.things you like in the opposite sex: Sense of humor, trust worthy.
5.when was your first kiss: 9th grade
6.are you a virgin: Yup
7.the most romantic thing anyone has done for you was: Umm, umm.... I don't know! I can't remember.. prolly nothing.
9.first boyfriend/girlfriend: Chris... I can't remember his last name... Chris #1, cuz there was Chris #2

*Creative Q's*
1.If you had the choice to spin around the sun, or walk on the moon, which would you choose and why?: Spin around the sun... cuz it sounds cooler... and i like hot better than cold.
2.What color do you think best describes you and why?: Blue.. cuz blue can be a happy color, or a sad color. It can be an ugly blue, or a pretty blue.
3.If you could be doing anything right now, what would you be doing: Hanging with Eryn, or shopping!
4.Would you ever share you heart completely with someone else? If yes- who~* if no- why not?: I would... I don't know with who, cuz I haven't met that person yet.
5.Which sense could you not live without, and why?: Hearing, I couldn't live without music.
6.Have you ever written on a mirror? If so what did you write?: Of course I have! I prolly just wrote my name or something... or the name of the boi I lurrved at the time.
7.If you could change one thing you did in the last 24 hours, what would it be and why?: Telling that lady she hadda pay for the bag... she went effing PSYCHO
8.Do you prefer sleeping outside beneath the night sky, or your cozy bed indoors?: I love the comforts of my bed.. in the winter. But in the summer, I'd much rather sleep outside.
9.What is the most beautiful thing in the world?: A sleeling puppy.
10.Name one person whose changed your life for the better: Eryn, she made me realize I could live w/o Stupid Girl.. and I'm much happier now.
11.What can someone do to you that would turn you on fully- physically or mentally- or both?: Talk to me all night long.
12.If you knew you were going to pass away within the next few days, what would be
the last thing you say, and who would you say that to?:
I would write a letter to my mom, and my gramma telling them everything I think about them. I wouldn't be able to say it, cuz there would be too much.
13.What is one thing that can make you smile no matter what mood your in?: Eryn's "said" page... and Happy Hardcore music.
14.If you could meet anyone, past or present, dead or alive, who would you meet and why?: I wanna meet my dad's real parents.
15.And finally, what makes you you?: My sense of humor, and understanding. And my stupid laugh/snort... you don't hear many of those!

*Whoa! That took like almost... 2 hours!*

(shoot the shit)

Date:2001-10-04 17:04
Subject:Vannnnnilaaaaaa *drool*

Ya, stupid-girl-at-work-whom-I-don't-know-her-name told me that I worked at 10:00 am this morning, so I get there, and Linda's like "Hmm, you don't work till 10:30" And ya know, that's what I thought too, but I tought I would be careful and check, as not to fuck up. I don't know who told me that, but I know the she's the one who yelled at us about the produce codes, and she talks to everyone like they're 5. WHORE

I realized just how much I didn't want to work today, and felt dumb for saying that I would come in early, so I told them I felt sick this morning, and asked if at all possible, could I leave early. And when I went to go for my second break, Danielle caught me as i was going upstairs and told me that I could leave! Yay! I worked 5 hours, which was more than my actual scheduled shift.

And I was pleasantly surprised when I went to check next weeks schedule, and I only work Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday! So I get Saturday and Sunday off, and then Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday.... I don't think I'm working Friday it says ROD/ in the box, and I don't know what that means. Chris' show is that day, and I really hope that me and Eryn get to go!

I so seriously need to go get new shoes. I wore my Etnies yesterday, for the 9 hours, my feet didn't even really hurt at all, but today, like 3 hours into the shift, I hadda taken them off cuz my tootsies were aching so bad. I guess I'll just have to put up with it for tommorow, and then I'll get some new ones on Saturday. I was hoping that they had some high tech looking Nikes, like the red ones and blue ones, cuz I'd much rather wear those than stupid loafers or somethign like that. My name is Melissa, and I am a dork

I'm so giddy cuz Eryn told me about International next year.. it's like 330 some days away, but I cannot wait until we go! It's going to be so much fun. I just love going on road trips, the drive is the best part! Especially if you have someone fun to drive it with, and there's no one funner than Eryn, lemme tell you that. We have hella fun just driving around Millhood... we drive in the day, so it's fun, not scary.

I can hear my dirty room calling my name, it's saying "HELP! I can't breath, all these clothes are suffocating me! And Mr. Bed is crying cuz his sheets are all twisted up!" Honestly, that's what it's saying. If I could stand for longer than 3 minutes without being in excruciating pain, I would clean it. I will before 9:00. That's when FRIENDS is on!! That's my absolute favorite show of all time. I start to chuckle just thinking about it tonight! Miss = Dork

Snack time!! And coke of course.

(shoot the shit)

Date:2001-10-02 20:57

When I get my new pooter. I'm gonna get a new LJ account. I don't know why... well basically cuz I didn't know that when you picked your user name, that meant the address part.... so I put an abbreviation of the journal name, and now it's ridiculously stupid. Plus I'd like a fresh start. So that's what I'ma do. Altho, that's like 3 months away.... but I felt like informing all of you non-readers out there....


(2 splats + shoot the shit)

Date:2001-10-02 19:03
Subject:Suck my bUm!

I'm bored... and tired... and sore... could I complain any more? Why, yes! My dog is retarted. A job that, under normal circumstances, should take roughly 20 minutes, took almost 45. It's REALLY hard to vacuum with 80lbs of dead weight attached to the hose. Believe me. Take my word for it.

Work was ok today, long... but I shouldn't think that, cuz tommorow is gonna be ever worse. 9 hours baby. 9 effing hours. Well... technically 8, cuz I get an hour, unpaid lunch. But lemme just tell you this, I really don't like MJ... we were told by her, Danielle, Stephanie... EVERYONE that you should never hesitate to call a supervisor, it's better to get them there, instead of screwing something up. And that's what I did, but everytime I called MJ, [which was only like... twice] it was this big production, and she always sounded so annoyed. Yet when I call Linda, she's so happy, and cheerful. But I think I did impress MJ when she came around and told us 10 minutes, and she went to explain that I should do the bundles like right now and I just said "Already done" she seemed surprised... ya, I think I more surprised her than impressed her.

Loma told mom that she was watching me yesterday, and she said I was just winging stuff thru... and then Loma told the girl in the hair place who I was [Frank's neice] and she was watching me too, and said she couldn't believe that it was only my second day, so does that mean I'm doing good? I don't know... no one's really told me! I can hope so... I know that I don't dread it all that much.

Oooo, I was so pissed this morning... dad was sposta wake me up when he left, so that I was semi-concious, but he failed to do so... so guess what time I woke up.... GUESS yes, tha'ts right 8:35... work at 9... getting picked up at 9:40. I was impressed. Yet I pulled myself together quite nicely... even tho I forgot my lock... but whatever. I really wish that we could wear running shoes or.. something like that, cuz my feet are killing me right now, very badly. Maybe I could get a doctors note or something like that... I know Dr. Chan would do something like that for me =)

I so desperatley want my computer... like not in January... not in December... not in November... NOW! I'm so sick of catering to everyone else's needs. But if I invest in one right, then I don't know how much money I'll have in December... not that I'm planning on spending thousands of dollars in California... but I'm sure I'll blow a fair chunk of it. I'm a Natural Born Shopper.. what can I say?

Holy hell, I needa cut my nails! And put hand lotion on, I cleaned the sink out, and scrubbed it with an SOS pad... now my hand feels like an SOS pad. Gruff.

Ciao for now.

(shoot the shit)

Date:2001-10-01 19:36
Subject:More self-discovery... not like THAT perv-o.

How pure are I?

19-25 points. Typical Teen. You tend to alternate between staying out of trouble and experimenting with new things. You try to be good but sometimes your curiosity and rebellious nature get the best of you. It�s natural to wonder what life has in store for you but enjoy being your age while you still can. There�s plenty of time for experimentation as you get older.


What kind of friend am I?

26 - 32 points: All that can be said is that you make the perfect friend! You don�t do all the talking because you are just as busy listening. You�re willing to share your favorite sweater or give up a guy for your friend. That really says a lot about how honest and caring you are. Just keep being your fun lovable self


How high maintenance am I?

27 - 45 points: You aren�t HIGH maintenance but you do care about how people see you. You go with the flow most of the time and can adjust to situations. You will certainly try to make a good impression, but if something unexpected comes along it doesn�t send you into a tailspin. You like your brands and have your favorite things, but they don�t necessarily have to be the best or perfect all the time. You may be picky sometimes but not difficult. You probably prefer to have things your way (who doesn�t) but you don�t see it as everyone else�s job to agree with you and give you what you want.


Is my attitude holding me back?

18 - 29 points: You�ve got a happy medium going on here. You are confident in how you feel and easy to be around. You can shift gears when you need to and not look back. You are refreshing to be around and friends know that a day with you won�t usually turn ugly. You occasionally are uncomfortable with something and will let someone know, but in a way that doesn�t embarrass you or anyone who�s with you. This great attitude will take you far!


Am I a princess?

17 - 23 points: Compromising for the Better. You do a good job of balancing your wants and needs with other people�s wishes. Rather than routinely backing down or demanding that you always take the lead, you work with the people you care about to make a pleasant compromise that works towards what you both desire out of the situation. Showing that you�re a good sport while keeping pace with your individual preferences helps to make you well-rounded and a trusted friend or family member. When the glass is half full there are plenty of possibilities out there!


Am I green with envy?

17 - 23 points: Little Green Monster. You hate to be jealous of your friends but sometimes you can�t help yourself. As much as you try to be happy for others sometimes you lose control and the little green envy monster takes over. You are never proud of those moments when you stomp off and act like a spoiled brat so you try to limit them. At least you are aware of the problem so you can attempt to work on it. Try to remember that if you are happy for your friends they will be happy for you as well!


That's all I feel like doing right now. Plus, I find it ironic how I'm always the "perfect" answer. Never the too good, or the bad. Always the ideal answer. I'm not perfect.. why are my quizzes!! Dammit!

(1 splat + shoot the shit)

Date:2001-09-30 22:13
Subject:I haven't done one of these in.... SOOO long!

1.Do you like having your picture taken? No, not at all, I take HORRIBLE pictures!!!
2.Have you ever done a photo shoot, professional or non? Ummm no.... well do grad pictures count? That's professional!
3.If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go and why? I wanna go to Australia, England, and Paris. Cuz they're all beeeeutiful places
4.Who would you take with you on this little adventure? Eryn, of course
5.What would you say is the most daring thing to do in a lifetime? Bare your soul... as corny as it sounds. It can cause alot of damage.
6.Would you ever do that? Probably unconciously I have/will
7.Have you ever done crossword puzzles? Tried, yes
8.Ever actually completed one? See above!
9.Pick up the closest book and write a sentence at random from it. "What's This - Click on this command or toolbar button, which activates the help cursor, to click on any item in the application window and get specific hlep on that feature."
10.Do the same with a lyric from either a CD or the radio. "Time, is never time at all, you can never, ever leave. Without leaving a piece of youth"
11.Have you ever tried to analyze your own dreams? A couple of times, I've tried to... but usually don't come to any conclusion, so I gave up long ago.
12.Would you put up posters in your room? I have a black light one... and a happy face on in my closet. But that's about it... I can't really put them up, I have weird walls.
13.Can you sing? No, no. Not at all!
14.Do you ever sing to yourself while doing everyday tasks? If I'm home alone, sometimes I hum... with the occasional word. But not usually.
15.What's your favorite color of post-it note? Pink man! You can't miss pink!
16.How many cassette tapes do you own? None, I threw them all out when I cleaned my room out, a couple weeks back.
17.How many CD's do you own? Oh god... prolly like 200.
18.Ever bought a CD for just one song? Nope, not lately. I haven't bought a CD for like a year and a half... ever since the whole Natper uprising
19.What would your perfect day consist of? I don't have nothing to do, nothing to worry about. Watch all my TV shows, tool around on the computer, read a good book. Talk to Eryn online, and go to sleep in a nice, warm, comfy bed.
20.Have you ever lied to get off the phone or out of talking to someone on line? Oh, many a many times!
21.Have you ever written a survey? Actually, I did once! Sadly, no one filled it out =(
22.How about a song? I've never actually written a song. *odd*
23.Or maybe a poem? I wrote poetry ALL the time, but I'm not sharin!
24.Is your VCR flashing 12:00 all the time? Actually no, I can fix that! Come to me!
25.Do you read your horoscope? Um, if I have time to read the paper, then I usually glance over mine.
26.If so, do you base your day on it? Oh god no, that's pathetic
27.Would you rather chew gum or use mouthwash and why? Gum, if my teeth don't hurt.. cuz mouthwash burns.
28.Do you floss? I try to, as much as possible. But it's hard with a full metal mouth.
29.Are you addicted to Napster like me? I was... but it sucks now, so AG rawks my socks!
30.How many times a year about are you sick? Alot. I'm talking like 5 to 7 times.
31.Ever been in an airplane? Why yes, I have!
32.If so where were you flying to? One time, to California, and then back to Edmonton, and one time to Toronto.... then back to Edmonton
33.What radio station to you listen to most? 100.3 The Bear *rarrrgh*
34.What color are your shoes? Oh god... got sum black/gold ones, pink/white, blue, orange, white/orange, black, baby blue, pink, black. And prolly many, MANY more.
35.Was fuzzy wuzzy a bear? Yes, yes he was indeed!
36.Do you know how to play dominos? I think I do... not really sure of the actual rules tho
37.Or do you think I just mean pizza by that? No, I'm not THAT dumb!
38.Speaking of pizza, what's your favorite kind? I like bacon and mushroom. But basically anything but ham and pineapple
39.What color are your eyes? Blue baby!
40.How many surveys have you filled out this lifetime? I don't even know.
41.Describe your bedroom, include all details. It's shaped like a barn, white walls, blue carpet. Multi color trim and base boards, x'mas lites all around. Bay window with shelves up top lined with flutterby lights. Walkin closet with cow and chicken ball curtains. Wire cubes holding all my junk. Lotsa pictures frames with muh friends.. well Eryn. Cherry sheets (soon to be sheep!) and a VERY warm and comfy duvet
42.Name one person your life is made better by. My mommy =) And Eryn
43.Would you or have you ever shaven your head? I haven't, but I would in support for cancer, but that's it.
44.How about someone else's? I couldn't forgive myself.. even if they asked me to do it!
45.Can you do math with ease? I'ma gonna hafta say NO there Bob!
46.What size is your computer screen? 17" I think.
47.If you could only talk to one person online who would that be? I DO only talk to one person online, and that's Eryn
48.Name your favorite type of music and why. I'm a big fan of rave music, and I like alternative/rawk as well. Hell, I like ALLL typed of music!
49.Are you a vegetarian? Ummm, partially. I don't like red meat. But I eat chicken and fish.
50.How about an aspiring actor/actress? Hell no.. never even thought about it.
51.What famous person dead or alive would you interview if you had the chance? I don't really know... there's alot. Prolly Princess Di. She was such an awesome person. I woulda liked to have talked to her.... met her son *swoon*
52.Which movie can you watch and say the lines along with the actors? Clueless... and Christmas Vacation.... oh and Night at the Roxbury
53.Name one your passions in life. I honestly, truly don't really have any passions in life
54.What's your least favorite time of day? The time that I'm working!
55.Who's your favorite member in a band, singer, guitar, bass, drummer, and why? Do you mean WHAT, or WHO... well WHAT would be guitarist, they make the song. WHO would be, either Shirley Manson, or Billy Corgan *tear*
56.Do you use hairspray or gel? Gel, once in a while. Like maybe once every month!
57.Describe your favorite meal. Pizza! I could eat pizza EEEEVERY day!
58.What color is the inside of your head when you close your eyes? Looks kinda off-white to me.
59.Ever listen to classical music? Umm, a couple of times I have, but I don't usually.
60.Have you ever said LOL in real life without thinking about it? Hah, no, but that would be really funny to hear someone say!
61.Do you find you use Internet language when writing notes in real life? More than you can imagine. Mooooooooorrrrreeeee.
62.What songs would be on your ideal CD? Ya know, there's just so many... and I can't think of them all right now. They would be my all time favorite songs... a couple 80's, some alt/rawk, happy hardcore. 90's dance! Oh ya, variety man.
63.Say one thing you've learned today. What to do to call the supervisor at work!
64.What is the best present you've ever given someone else? I'm not sure.. I've never really been told... or noticed myself giving someone something good....
65.What is the best present someone else has ever given to you? Holy crappers, I don't know!
66.So hey, what's your full name? Melissa Ann
67.Describe yourself while drunk.Umm, I'm really goofy... I hit on everything and everyone... then I get really tired, really fast!
68.How big are the windows in your house? Quite massive actually, like most of them are almost floor to ceiling
69.Do you wear a watch? When I know where it is, then yes I do. But right now, no.
70.What's the kinkiest thing you've ever done with someone else? I've never done anything kinky. Honestly.
71.What's the largest age difference between you and someone you've dated? Ummm, I think a year and a couple months... I honestly can't remember
72.How many mirrors do you have? In my room? 1. In the house.... like 11.
73.Write one sentence stating what you want people to say about you after you've passed on. "I miss her"
74.Have you ever sailed? Never, but I would muchly enjoy it if I did.
75.How fast can you run? Not fast, I'll just say that much.
76.What do you believe in? Umm, I don't know what I believe in. NOT GOD, I'll tell you that much!
77.How long does it take you to get ready to go out? Between 20 minutes and an hour... depending on the shower time, and if I straighten my hair or not.
78.Do you shower daily? If not how often? Once a day, at least.
79.What one thing would you change in your life if you had the power to do so? My laziness.
80.Describe the ideal superpower and what you would do if you had it. I would like to be able to become invisible, whenever I wanted.
81.Are candles romantic or a fire hazard? Very romantic, and not a fire hazard if you handle them correctly.
82.Name something you've done in the last 24hrs no matter how big or small. Went to Denny's =)
83.Do you wear necklaces, bracelets, anklets, earrings, rings? I wear 2 captive beads in my right ear, usually an anklet, but they all broke, and ocasionally a necklace
84.What colors are you wearing right now? blue, white, gray, beige, red, black, white, and pink.
85.How often do you change the sheets on your bed? Umm, I think once every couple of months.
86.Have you ever gotten lost? Too many times to explain... I even got lost on purpose one time!
87.What's on your computer desk? The computer, printer, scanner, CD's, papers, pencil sharpener, remotes, calendar, CD stomper, stuffies, books, speakers. That's about it.
88.How many folders are on your desktop at the present moment? 7.
89.When your talking do you ever use your hands to do quotation marks in the air when saying certain words? Alot actually... and I never really noticed it till now.
90.Which landmark would you climb if you could? The great wall of China! Well, I'd climb the path, not the actual wall.. what am I.. retarted? Don't answer that.
91.Do you own or have you read, or thought of reading any self-help books? When I was younger, I read a couple.
92.Ever seriously questioned your sanity? A couple of times, yes, I have.
93.Can you breakdance? No, but I think that would be so cool if I could!
94.What's in your fridge right now? Fruit, veggies, dairy stuff, juice, pop, booze. The usual.
95.How many people do you live with? 3 and 2 doggies... soon to be 1 doggie!
96.Have you or would you ever do anything more than kiss in a public area? I haven't done more than that... infact I haven't even done that! And I wouldn't do more than that.
97.What is the strangest thing you've ever done? I've done many weird things... one time I ran around the culdesac in my happy face shorts at 2 in the morning, after getting out of the hot tub. Among other things.
98.Name an instrument you've never played but would like to. The guitar... I've played it, but I suck ass.
99.Have you ever been on TV or the radio? I was on TV once, a shot of me as the camera panned out over the audience at Energy Rush
100.What is the worst thing anyone could ever do to you? Talk about me behind my back. Or be dishonest.
101.Are you a fast typer? Very fast, if I do say so myself... well you DID ask...
102.How high have you counted before getting bored? like 2000 or something, when I couldn't go to sleep.. well I must of gone to sleep... cuz I don't remember counting any higher
103.Describe how you sleep. (ie. your position and/or how you fall asleep)I usually sleep on my tummy, with one leg out, cuddling grapes. And I usually fall asleep thinking about how comefortable I am, each time I move a limb... it's gay, but it works for me!
104.Are you straight, bi, gay? Very straight
105.Do you ever do something else while on the computer? If so what? chat, do work stuff, read.
106.What is the most expensive item you own? Ummm, *I* personally. My stereo... or... god I don't know
107.How about the least expensive? Something makeupy, or hair accessory
108.What's your favorite card game to play? Solitaire, and crazy 8's PLUS!
109.What do you do online? I thought I just answered this... chat, read, LJ, neopets... stuff liek that. Yes, I'm a dork
110.Name some stores you've bought clothes in before. Old Navy, Winners, The Bay, Sears, Stitches.. etc.
111.Have you ever read a book and not understood it? If so which one? The God of Small Things. Argh
112.Have you ever watched a movie and not understood it? If so which one? Pulp Fiction... no matter how many times!
113.Do people pick up your slang language more than you pick up theirs?They usually pick up on mine.
114.Are you easily influenced by other people, or currant trends? No.. not really, I've got my own style.. don't need trends to tell me what to do!
115.What makes you unique in your own opinion? My dress, and character
116.Name your worst quality. My looks
117.Name your best. I'm a good listener, and I'm funnnnnny!
118.What would you like to do with your life? Do whatever makes me happy!
119.Do you blowdry your hair? Yup, about 3 or 4 times a week.
120.How many clocks are in your house? lots, I'll just tell you that much.
121.Are they all set on the same time? Of course not silly!
122.Have you ever intentionally set a clock ahead or behind the actual time? I did a couple of times. Didn't help in any way tho.
123.What do you think about when you first wake up in the morning? How much I don't wanna get out of bed. And I wish I could sleep ALLLL day.
124.Which browser do you use? IE 6
125.Do you bite your nails? No, I don't! And never will after seeing Eryn's fingers!
126.Would you ever leave little notes to your gf/bf? If I had one, I surely would!
127.Ever been to a farm? I think I have, but it didn't like it. Not one bit.
128.Tell me about your dream last night.To make a VERY long story short. Some crazy english man tried to kill my family, so I killed them, then someone ripped their skin off and turned them in Tool-like creatures and mated them. Yup.
129.Ever seen a shooting star? No that I can remember, but I think I have.
130.Say one thing about yourself you've never told anyone. I usually don't hold nothing back.
131.Do your days fly by or seem to last forever? So fricken fast man. I HATE it.
132.Have you ever stayed in a fancy high-class rich hotel? The Delta Chelsea in Toronto.. TOTALLY didn't fit in there!
133.Have you ever stayed in a rent-by-the-hour motel? Yup, Apple Motel in Spokane.
134.What in your opinion is the best advertising slogan out there? I dunno, the "Got Milk" one is pretty powerful.
135.When they start sending rockets to the moon for us civilians, will you be on the list to go? Hmmm, that'd be pretty cool.. depending on the price.. SURE!
136.How are you feeling right now? Cold, tired, dirty, and lazy.
137.Have you ever written anything on your skin? Many.. MANY times
138.If so what? Reminders, homework, other people wrote stuff once.
139.Which website do you frequent most often? LiveJournal.com, hotmail.com, neopets.com, hottopic.com
140.What color is most of your clothes? black, red or blue
141.Do you own any plants? Umm, I have some dried roses, but that's about it.
142.Are things as bad as they seem? No, I know they're not.
143.Describe the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you. Were there for me when I needed them most.
144.Ever looked directly at the sun? Once... and NEVER AGAIN
145.Have you ever made a pinhole camera to watch the eclipse? Ummm, what kinda dork-o do you think I am??
146.What's your favorite cereal? Crispex, or frosted shredded wheat.
147.Who do you miss? Ashley, and Ken =(
148.Name something you just can't forget no matter how hard you try. Ummm, times when I've been really angry or embarrased. Hate that!
149.Describe the worst fight you've ever been in whether physical or verbal. I don't usually get in fights. Well, once with my mom, when she threw a PLASTIC bowl, and it shattered. That fight was pretty damn bad.
150.Say something else about yourself you've never told anyone before. I'm really a man........

(shoot the shit)

Date:2001-09-29 10:30
Subject:Duh... what's my age again?

I had like.. THEE stupidest dream. Because we were talking about the date yesteray, making sure that it was actually the 28th... cuz Kim has been known to try and convince us otherwise. I somehow dreamt about the date. The first part was me at SJT, going to school. I was done school, but I went back to grade 9 I guess, cuz I was in Mr. Zimmermann's social class, and I remember walking down the hallway, and looking in the picture case and seeing a picture of who I thought was Derek (!?!?) in a hockey uniform, but turned out only to be someone who LOOKED like him. Drats! So then that whole school thing ended and.....

I was out in the middle of no where, by myself. It was like I was at a lake, camping, but there was no one else around, and I wasn't actually camping. The only thing I did was go to this little convinience store, and there was an old couple working there.. well I think they owned it... well that's besides the point.

So anywayz, then that part of the dream ends... and I"m guessing that it's the next day. (29th) So I'm with mom now, driving down what appears to be 127th street, on our way to the middle of nowhere place where I was before. And then I just blurt out. "So I'm actually 19 then?" and she goes "Yes!" I, and the rest of the world, completley forgot my birthday, which was the day before.. on the 28th... but the dream never mentioned if it was April or not... doesn't have to be.... cuz when I was young, I thought my birthday was on the 28th day of every month. So that could be what this dream is about. But anyways, we get to this middle of nowhere place, and that little store is still there, we walk up to it, and my gramma and grampa come to the door, with my grama saying "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!" The store is now their house.

And that was basically all of the dream. It was really cracked out, but actually quite cool, cuz, I liked the idea of being 19. I really want to be 19. It's so much better than 18, cuz you're not viewed as "just being legal" You've been legal for a year, and are WELL on your way to being an adult... ohhh yes. That would be kewl.

Ugh. I'm thirsty!!

(shoot the shit)

Date:2001-09-29 00:15
Subject:OK, now it's just anger

I just thought of this, as I was listening to +Walk On+. Today, the group got talking about music, and how someone went/was going to BSB concert, and then I mentioned that they were getting too old to be a boy band anymore. And then Steph said that she used to love them, like be obsessed. Then she said that Metallica was too old to play. I'm sorry, Metallica fucking rocks, to be playing for such a long time, and still have such a large fan base, and be ABLE to still rawk is amazing! And not once during there whole career have they sold out, which is something really rare nowadays.

And, THIS is the icing on the cake, I'm filled with rage here baby. They actually had the NERVE to say that U2 still shouldn't be playing... wtf? They're like the most incredibly band out there, every single thing that is produced from that band is a work of art... and his name in BONO not BONE-O. Like ppl say.. that really pisses me off. U2 does SOOO much for this world, they put their heart and soul into everything they do.. how can you say they shouldn't be around? Youngins' nowadays wouldn't know great music if it bit em in the ass then slapped them in the face.

If you think Bitchney Spearme is great music... there's some serious issues you gotta deal with before you can step out into the real world. Ohhhh yes.

Just thought I'd get that off my chest.... U2... not play... sheesh. Demented, I tell ya!

(shoot the shit)

Date:2001-09-28 23:53
Subject:Stupid, lil ol' me.

Ya know, even tho I only fucked up like 2 things on the test tonight, I still feel like the dumbest person ever to walk to planet. And I really can't explain why. Maybe it's cuz of my age. Just about everyone else is 16, I'm 18... well Kim is 19... but I don't know how everyone did, so I can't really compare myself to them, now can I?!

All I know is that I feel sooooo bad for Steph. Like, seriously. She had everything planned out so good, we were ahead just about a day. She had ALL Friday free for testing, yet somehow, it worked out that 7 of 11 had to be tested at the same time, in 20 minutes, where the test should be half an hour. At least. She had to get the people she had already tested, and about 4 other SS workers to help her. Otherwise we'da been there till 12, at least. I know she was embarrased for crying infront of us, but I know that I would of done exactly the same thing. I know what it's like to be under that much pressure, have a small amount of time to accomplish an even bigger task. But no matter how much we reassured her that she did a great job, and that everything worked out fine, she was still so hard on herself. Pressing that she was going to be in so much trouble, cuz the way she executed it was so "unprofessional" That's all I can think about right now, is how upset she must still be.

I'm no good at comforting or reassuring people. I suck.

At least now I get two days of before I go back for another 5 days straight! I still gotta find me some black, polishable shoes, and some muchly fashionable Higher State clothing. Oh yes. How excited am I? Wetting myself, that's how much.

I'm also very very VERY hungry. My tummy is practically puching and screaming at me.
So I'm going to go get some food. Yes I am. Wish me luck! Ha ha ha.

(shoot the shit)

Date:2001-09-28 18:12
Subject:The light at the end of the tunnel.... FINALLY!

I'm so excited that tonight is my last day of training... but I'm gonna miss everyone! Even tho I'm gonna be working with them, it's just not going to be the same.

I know that we've got our individual tests today... I'm very nervous, even tho it's not pass/fail test. It's just that I don't know the codes... as well as I maybe should... altho it seems that everyone else doesn't either. That and the fact that I have absolutley no confindence in myself prolly doesn't help either.

I just finished watching the Friends where they were in Vegas, and Ross and Rachel got married. Omigod, I laughed my ass off! Friends can ALWAYS make me laugh, no matter what! "Why hello Mrs. Ross" "Ooooo, hello Mr. Rachel!" Ah, it's great! I can't wait till next Thursday so I can watch a new one! Woot.

I think after I get home from work tonight, I'm going to clean my room. Just go straight up there and clean. Cuz I can't even move around in it... I still haven't unpacked, and my laundry hasn't been put away for weeks, I'm thinking.

I think to much! Ohhh yes. God, it's so fricken cold... and I'm the only one to blame, cuz I said the other day, that I wanted a cloudy, cold day... and that's what i got today, and now my hands are gonna fall off from freezingness. Hah.

I'm going to go get a sweater, and brush my gnashers. That'd suck if I was talking to someone in the group with sammich stuck in my metal!!

(1 splat + shoot the shit)

Date:2001-09-28 14:58
Subject:Testing, testing.... TESTS!

So far, I've discovered that...........

My secret life is that of THAT 70'S SHOW


If I was in a band, I'd be the DRUMMER


When asked if I know how to "work it" I got WORKING GIRL


I am HALFWAY TO HOOCHIEVILLE when asked if I'm a hoochie


I am JUST A GIRL, and therefore, do act my age


My scent is PINA COLADA




When asked how honest I am, I came out to be a FIBBER


My summertime soundtrack is/was STAIND ^^ BREAK THE CYCLE


My inner supermodel is TYRA BANKS


Ewww, CHRISTINA AUGILARA is my inner Teen Queen


My rock star match in LENNY KRAVITZ *swoon*


My That 70's Show character is HYDE


The music video that is my life is *barf* COME ON OVER [CHRISTINA AUGUILAR]


Okay, I'm done with this. Bored at that!

Eryn's modifying me journal! Yay Eryn! Eryn rawks.

(shoot the shit)

Date:2001-09-28 12:36
Subject:A dream, I once had!

Shite, now i can't really remember it. I know that it was good. Once again, it was about me being in love, and the guy actually loving me back. Fuck. I know that we met, and then he said that he had to go back somehwere. I wasn't sure if he liked me to, I thought maybe he was just being nice. I was flirting, and everything, and he was kind of responding. Then when I found out that he was going to be leaving, I got up the guts to ask him for his phone number and address. I was going to tell him because I thought he was a cool person. But then, as he was giving it to me, he was being really close to me, and giving off the impression that he "liked" me too. But I don't think he ever actually said that.
Tangent: We were in the old house, and decorting my room and Chris' room, adn I think Jill was there, but I got upset with her or something and kicked her out.

I said goodbye to my guy... whom when I first met was kind of short, and skinny, dark hair, dark eyes. Then, when I went to my new job in the next couple of days, he was there, watiting for me, saying that he worked there too. My job was cutting wood... I don't know what he was doing. But now, he wasn't short and skinny, he was taller, and bigger, but still looked the same. *odd*

And that's all I remember.

(1 splat + shoot the shit)

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